YOYO! (:

bad day today. screw you idiots! :@

ok, 4 times of singing in the morning and missed 3/4 of our maths lesson. i'm not happy at all abt this, seriously.. i'm forever (95% of the time) failing maths despite trying my best to listen in class, do the work given& yet still failing. =( i really dont like missing lessons; esp maths.
although i always try to be positive, but it's hard and this is adding on to it. ='( i'm so trying to work hard and... haiz. WHY?

took class t-shirt today and i personally found it to be nice except maybe the name at the side but NOTHING's perfect yea? &i dont expect YOU ALL to say you love it, but is this the correct way to express your unhappiness?

you all should actually thank sihui&jesper for designing the t-shirt, but all YOU ALL did was to grumble. when we asked, "do you all want to make class tee" you peeps were the one who SHOUTED damn bloody LOUD "YES" alright! idiots. i got pissed because you all didnt appreciate what we girls had done. if you ppl are so PRO, so KIANG and so CREATIVE, why didnt you all CONTRIBUTE? it's like when we get it, den you all come out with comments like.. "whoever could have drawn much better", "whoever could have done a better job" or even.. "i could have drawn up much nicer things".

this suck ok. if, you really could draw much better, have better ideas than what sihui had done (she did great alright) or, if you all are willing to pay MORE (instead of grumbling and complaining)... maybe, we could have a marvellous tee shirt (in our dreams). i bet you all cant do a better job than what we had done alright. so shut up&stop saying you wana draw on it. argh you all dont learn how to be thankful yeah? i'm seriously pissed offf.
however, the ok thing is the new chem cher is alright- as long as he dont shout =X although he's abit lag and he dont make chemistry very interesting =P (like life examples la) but... still listen-able. =.= i'll get use to this no matter what because.. i actually did like chemistry and i dont want to hate it now... it's suppose to be interesting yea? =) but... what isit all abt on the chapter AIR&WATER? hur, self study on that. =.=

but i abit unhappy abt myself la.
i got called by mr song to practise oral infront of the whole class&i did badly (as in, i expect more from myself). he was actually chosing between me or vonne and.. TADA, i tio. =,= and suddenly got called and i admit, i did feel nervous.. because i dont have any 心理准备 at all. but later oral did went quite smoothly and mr song give his comments along the way.. it really helps. =) he gave me a 24/30 for conversation but i'm not really =D. now, alot of ppl expect me to ace thru it (even me, myself want&hope to) but... i feel the pressure from others, &myself. BUT i also promise to ace with hpy =P so.. i just got to try my best. =)&i believe we can do it!!! :DD

after school, lucky chem cher came in and gave us STARS.. if not, we could have waste time waiting for maths STARS. it's said to be at 2.30pm and yet... only start at 3+.. and do one quest.. eliza&i went all over to find cher and yet.. cant find.. den he's in class. =.=
seriously, i dont know what can i do abt my maths? i'm scared.

oral falls on this coming friday.. i dont feeel that excited anymore after today&i dont have that much confidence.. BUT i believe i can do it!
GOGOGO elaine! [: and JIAYOU for those taking oral for tmr!!!
hy jiayou! (lol, phonecall so long.. must do well! :P) & GOGOGO daniel [: !! you can do it!! =P
&ofcause to all other hpys... =)

bad day, but well... its over. all YOU ALL know is to open your mouth&comment, yet not realising/gei siao like you all dont know anything... and... hurt others feeelings. why dont you all filter thru your sentence structure or what you are gona say before... opening your mouth? &how long we took to collect the money from you all? yet, none of these who comment LOUDLY appreciate what we've done for you all. i tot our class is united, i tot we're gona rock on teachers' day celebration (maybe we still will?), i tot 4EC had matured alot.. i tot.. i tot... there wont be such senseless comments and to think, i actually look forward to today for the tees to be given out. maybe everything is 我单方面的想法 or what?

sorry ivan, i know you only playing with me today.. and i turned and shout, hit your head so damn hard. i felt bad la, cause of my attitude... and yet, is you say paiseh. =.= ...

COURSEWORK B's starting right from tmr. we've just finish coursework A !!!! how can!!! =.=^ JIAYOU elaine! :D if i can finish PART A, i can do the same for B yea? good, very positive attitude =P

everything is adding on to my fear.
**STUDY, STUDY, STUDY~
i know i need to STUDY, and i seriously want to STUDY but so far, my most concern subject dont seem to get me anywhere. WHAT can I do? i'm trying so damn hard and who'll seee? these effort wont be put into consideration right. i'm feeeeling so damn stressed today.. yet, who can understand this?
do you know, i actually for the first time in years... START on my HOMEWORK almost immediately after i reached home at 4.40pm? &the feeeling's good =) but... i'm still not feeeeling tooo good. everyone's under pressure i wont be able to understand your pressure.. &you wont be able to understand mine too. =(

haiz, i dont know why at all. hurhur =(
its impossible that i go crying to anyone right, &its even more impossible to NOT study. what's wrong with me? idontknow... i felt quite demoralised. where's my confidence? can you come back? it seemed to have lost its way today...

hopefully my confidence will be back tmr. [: